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Good Night, Stupid Dream.

2008-03-08

I had a fantastic night at work last night.  I think I finally got the attention of a guy I've had my eye on for a few weeks now.  I made a bunch of money and I was in a good mood all night!  I hope tonight is just as good.

I dreamt about David last night.  I was dreaming that we were getting back together and I was freaking out because I was positive that he'd leave me again.  He locked the front door and told me that it would never happen again.  I woke up and I was pissed.  That's the first dream I've had that puts us back together after this entire fiasco.  Usually I dream that we are still together.  I was disappointed that my subconscious still longs for reconciliation.  It's not really a surprise, but I wish all of me would catch up to my mental resolve to get over this.

I think I may have to ban myself from MySpace again and delete my account.  I checked his profile again today.  He has it public again and I gave in to curiosity and read his blog.  Turns out he's still engaging in the same immature antics, bar hopping and bar fights.  I'm disappointed to say the least, but he's not in my life anymore so I shouldn't really care.  He hasn't had anything to say to me, besides that one cryptic message, since he came over a few weeks back.  I hope he's quit reading my blog.  I don't want the things I say about him to upset him, sometimes I am very opinionated and not very nice.  Oh well.  I try not to think about it too much.  I am trying not to give too much thought and attention to him now.  Some days are better than others.  I'll get the hang of it eventually.  I've already stopped bringing him up in regular conversation.  That is a step forward.

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